Monthly Archives: October 2009

I Should Really Pay More Attention To What I’m Saying

I was talking with a friend that said she wanted to try some different things, like ballroom dancing or go to the roller derby,  but didn’t want to go alone. She didn’t think any of her friends would like the … Continue reading

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Better

Right now I feel like I’d like to do something like sit around a campfire with a bunch of women at some sort of “togetherness” workshop and then sigh at how silly something like that is. Here is where I … Continue reading

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What A Difference

It’s only been five days since they removed John from the house and the kids and I have been by ourselves and today? Today the kids and I DANCED A JIG while we were cooking. This feeling? Totally awesome. I’ve … Continue reading

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The road to happiness is paved with hot coals at the start. You just have to trust that at some point, your feet will quit burning.

I got an e-mail from J’s mom this morning: I don’t know what to say other than I am sorry and wish you had contacted me first. I know she doesn’t know the extent of everything that has happened in … Continue reading

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Woe is me and other things

That was officially stupid hard. I made the call today to go home and end my marriage.  For years it has been harder than it needs to be.  I still feel terrified even though I think that this is the … Continue reading

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Going Home

I have tons of things to say right now.  Tons.  I want to get it all out and reason and backtrack and ruminate.  But I can’t right now.  I won’t be by myself again until Tuesday.  The day I will … Continue reading

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Granola, Oatmeal, And Forgiveness

I’m trying to learn how to be okay with who I am, to sit down with myself and look at all my flaws, all my quirks and weirdness and to honestly really like me anyway. Not so much in spite … Continue reading

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